Happy Birthday Momma!

How do you properly commemorate a birthday for the most important person in your life? How do you accurately celebrate the woman that gave you life, has always unconditionally loved you and most importantly made you the person you are today? It isn't possible and I know, as I’m writing this, I won’t do her justice.

For as long as I can remember my Mom has been my best friend. Since day one, she’s devoted her life to not only me, but all her kids. Looking back, so often she went without so we wouldn’t. She made sure I was always prepared for whatever I was walking into. One of my sweetest memories of my childhood was how on the night before our first day of a new school year she would always paint my nails bright red. It was a CPS school color and she always wanted us to start the year feeling prepared and confident. I had an amazing childhood and it’s all thanks to her.

It seems so unfair that today, on her big 50th birthday, she has to spend it in a hospital bed so sick. For a woman that’s always been a giver, it sure feels like so much has been taken from her. I’m going to be honest and say that sometimes I get really mad. I use my bathroom door as a punching bag and let's just say I’ve done a lot of kickboxing in the last few days. I want more than anything for this fight to be over for Mom. I want to see her home with us, enjoying my kids and enjoying life. It’s been a hard 18 months for us. She is tired...we are tired...but I know for sure the Lord is not tired. Just when I feel like I can’t walk it anymore, he carries me a little farther.

This morning I got to spend some time with her. We watched everyone’s birthday videos...we talked about what’s going on on facebook...she asked about the kids. It was a good morning. She also got to do some PT this morning and said “it wasn’t too bad.” Around 1, she started having some pretty severe stomach pain and a fever. We aren’t sure exactly why she’s hurting or what is causing the fever... to be honest I don’t even care what is causing the pain, all I care about is figuring out how to make it go away. Whatever it is needs to be gone. Will you please help me pray away the pain and fever? Let it disappear at the mention of His name.

Thank you so much for all the love and prayers you all have sent our family. I feel it all day long and it’s what’s getting us through this. Please continue to pray for us and pray for Mom’s miracle. We love you all.