Thursday, July 30, 2020

We believe

Tuesday might have been the worst day of my life, but last night was definitely the worst night. I called at 10PM to get an update and they told me that Mom “had a pupil change,” was unresponsive after 3 hours of no sedation and was being rushed to CT. This news was scary and devastating. They told me they would call me back and to wait until they had results. For a full 45 minutes Grannie, myself, Claire, Aunt Karen and Aunt Kes prayed out loud for Mom. We begged the Lord to make this not true and to continue to command healing over her body.

Soon after, we got the call that the CT scan was clear and normal!!! PRAISE THE LORD! He is GOOD ALL THE TIME. I can’t sing his praises enough. When they got her back to the room, the doctor said he felt confident it was metabolic acidosis. They said they were going to run more labs and possibly start dialysis. Mom was suppose to get dialysis yesterday but never did because she began producing urine on her own. This morning, the heart transplant team told us that they decided dialysis wasn’t needed because her kidneys started producing good urine and her creatinine levels looked better. Nephrology doesn’t think she needs dialysis and we are thankful for that miracle.

The doctors told us they are sure that she has some sort of underlying infection somewhere, but infectious disease hasn’t found it yet. They are treating her with new strong antibiotics, and if that‘s what is causing all this we should start to see some improvement once the antibiotics start working.

Aunt Kes spent the day with her. This morning when she went in she was discouraged because Mom was not on sedation and couldn’t be aroused. This afternoon the NP called to tell me that Mom’s heart rate had come up and she had started moving her head from side to side. She was also opening her eyes and had started to bite the tube in her throat. They were encouraged by this and feel like once her metabolic numbers get more normal, her head should clear and she should become less foggy. They decided to restart the sedation to help keep her comfortable.

Mom has a very long road ahead of her. She’s still very sick and still considered critical. Tomorrow we have a family meeting with her doctors to discuss her case and what‘s ahead. Please pray for that meeting and for the doctors. I know they are so tired of us bugging them for updates and begging for the updates to be good news, but she’s our sweet Mom/daughter/wife/Lollie/sister/Cookie and we need her.

Please continue to pray for Mom. Specifically for whatever infection is causing all of this to go away. Pray that her heart would get stronger by the minute, her kidneys would continue to work and her liver function would improve drastically. Please also pray for her to have peace. Whatever happens, I want her to be comfortable and without pain.

When I originally started this blog, it was to keep everyone updated with her LVAD journey and share the story of the Lord’s goodness in her and my life. Still, two years later our story is the same. Mom is still One Tough Cookie and the Lord is still Good. He’s continuing to hold her, love her and heal her. Mom has had a rough two years and I can’t pretend to act like I understand why this continues to happen to her. I do know, that no matter how rough the path, the Lord continues to prove everyone wrong. As soon as I feel desperate and hopeless, He does something else to remind us that no matter how difficult the task, He’s got this. I believe that right now, in this very moment, He is speaking life into her heart, lungs, kidneys, brain, liver and every inch of her body. I believe that he’s standing next to her bed holding her hand and whispering in her ear “I’ve got you Kim.” I believe He’s filling her mind with sweet dreams of a life with no more pain and no more sickness. I believe that He’s not done with Mom and her story is NOT ending here. No matter what comes next, God is on the throne, He is the great physician, and He is in control. My family will cling to that hope and faith each and every day. Will you?




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